31/5/08
oh man,
lack of updates for so many days
and well,
the last week of sch wasn't good
blahs
i was pon ing every lesson dat gave me a chance to
heh.
so bad.
and
it's the hols now
BUT
dere are so many assignments to be finished
and
the stupid cca camp which i dun feel like going
if i dun go
den bye to ccas
hahas
heck
blahs
got hooked onto this game today
something like audition
the high street 5
whoa
now how am i supposed to conc on wad i'm supposed to be conc on?
SAVE ME
my hols are like gone alr
with the huge workload and tight schedule
i seriously am reconsidering having a cca
since i did not apply for any scholarship related stuff
can someone enlighten
and tell me if the cca would be of any use?
sians.
morning darrling came over
and we went 'jogging'
hahas
well we didnt exactly jog
until the end
den darrling ran one round
oh, we went with my pretty cousin bowee,
my sweet mum and cute sister
hahas.
came back and slacked at home for a day
watched one missed call
den dl-ed the stupid game for over 4 hours.
heh.
gonna sleep soon
BOWEE YOU STOP READING
okie, random
cos she's staring at wad i'm typing
YOU KUKU NATHAN
hahas
BYE.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:59 pm
26/5/08
DARRLING I LOVE YOU.
new phone today.
samsung i450
checkin it out.
TOMORROW!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:53 pm
25/5/08
went out for lunch today
mummy hinted for me to go out for dinner
had dinner with darling
mum went to expo with mei
xiao di went to bugis
dad went to work
left me alone at home
heh.
darling reached at bout 5plus 6
we slacked awhile,
and went to compass for dinner
ate at kfc
went to singtel to kpo
and realised
15moths and can recontract
heh.
gonna enquire tml
EXCITED.
blahs.
darling,
be mine always.
LOVEs.
HAPPY 13 MONTHS once again.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:42 pm
HAPPY 1 YEAR AND 1 MONTH
LOVING DARRLING!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 1:41 am
24/5/08
DARLING,
THANKS FOR TODAY =)
i ENJOYED myself.
earlier celebration .
darling came to find me in the noon
den went to his house cos i wanted him to chg
hahas
helped his cous collect some book at bras basar?
couldn't find the place cos darling go wrong place!
den he frustrated!
awww, luckily i remembered something bout maybank
and we saw it at the oppo street -.-
collected, proceeded to national library
CROWDED
like market. the ppl talk so loudly
so left for bugis within 5 mins
hmmm
SOO many new stuff
like so long never go out le
become SUA KU
BLEAHS
ate this prata sausage thingy
den went to take mrt to city hall.
reached, walked towards citylink
at the escalator
saw dis couple in their late 20s i guess
the guy dun respect her at all
FUCKED UP.
standing right in front of us
the guy saw us lookin
and tried to act
kept looking behind, dat fucker.
and banged the girl's boobs when calling her
overtook dem as i didn't wanna see more
BUT
when going up escalator after the calvin klein stretch,
noticed dem going down the escalator to esplanade
didn't care, but darling saw
the guy press both his palms onto the girl's boobs
SO FUCK
RESPECT THE GIRL MAN
GIRLFRIEND SOME MORE
NOT SOME FUCKING CHEENA PROS
IT'S DEGRADING FOR BOTH!
okies, went to msq
i wanna get beach shorts for darling!
and darling wanna buy bikini. heh.
i dun wanna wear cos i got NO BOOBS!
anyway, walked around and den headed to the jap restaurant for dinner.
the food not bad =)
pictures BELOW.
oh, the two dishes weren't enough actually,
but after the never ending ''ice kachang''
we were both full.
lalalas.
showed darling the donut shop at raffles city
cos he didn't believe me when i said it wasn't donut factory.
BELIEVE ME NOW DARLING?
bleahs.
darling wanted to take long bus journey
so we went to harbourfront to take 80.
wanted to sleep
but 2 foreigners were talking so loudly at the back
FUCK
den when dey alighted,
a cheena girl was talking to her cheena bf
so loudly as well
DOUBLE FUCK ( FUCK FUCK )
assholes.
nvm,
i still enjoyed today darling.
I LOVE YOU.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:02 pm
DARLING.
BLURR.
THE JAP ICE KACHANG. (green tea ice cream and syrup)
us before darling changed. 
the shop.
the 'pizza' . the crust so THIN. 
pasta. erm. salmon and avocado. DARLING ate ALL the avocados =)
DARLING advertising. hahas.
DUMB =.=
KUKU FACE! well........
SEE? the spoon of pasta bigger den DARLING's face. BREAHS.
hand covered. cos got extras. BLAHS.
my HAND is BIGGER den his face!
DARLING like AH BENG.
UGLY EATING.
okies, dere were fish flakes on my lips.
DARLING gimme flying kiss =) MUACKS.
HAHAS. SMILES. SWEET.
SIANS already.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:33 pm
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me inI
'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over againDon't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:12 pm
23/5/08
TODAY IS A SLACK DAY
lessons till 10
discussed cepb proj till 1045
den 11 to 1
had dis EMI make up tutorial
i didn't go.
well, i didn't noe
so i didn't prepare
den no point giong wad right?
IFEELBADI'MWASTINGMYPARENTSMONEY.
but at least i attended rwp.
and we did report today.
today was the REAL MOCK test =)
went home.
today was fun.
DARLING WAS NICE.
I'M HAPPY.
oh, and the sight of you REALLY FUCKING IRKS ME.
MORE AND MORE.
FUCK YOU!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:20 pm
22/5/08
HELLOS.
today was kinda boring.
well, i managed to ask questions during CEM
budden i spent my time after dat,
playing the psp.
hahas.
i DID my homework alrights.
i FINALLY handed in my giro form
hahas.
SORRY MANDY.
skipped bout 20 mins of microbio
in fact, skipped the whole thing
cos i was playing with the psp.
i tink,
i cant bring it with me
otherwise my lessons would be goners.
BLAHS.
collected the keychain today.
see??
NICE rights.
well, somehow i tink his name is nicer.
JEALOUS.
HUMPH.
sleep soon.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:08 pm
21/5/08
today is a BAD DAY.
i've got a back ache
i dunno y .
sit PAIN stand PAIN walk PAIN
even when wanna sit on the toilet bowl
also mus like AH MA liddat can.
asshole la.
am i gonna die or something?
or issit something wrong with the back bone?
OHMAN.
kinda scary.
i hope SLEEP chases the pain away.
SHOO!
well, collected pay today.
a damn measly pea sum of $42
BLAHS.
i wanted to get mum a bdae cake.
but she didn't wan one
so.....
i really didnt get her one
kinda regret it now
but, well,
i'll buy one next yr.
I DUN LIkE TODAY.
SO FUCKED UP.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:05 pm
20/5/08
I'M TIRED.
GOODNIGHT.
OH YA
PONNED EMI
COS HE ALWAYS DOESN'T TAKE ATTENDANCE.
IN THE END,
10 PPL PONNED
AND
HE TOOK ATTENDANCE.
ARGH.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:14 pm
19/5/08
today,
we spent alot of time doing our IDEAS
but i dun tink the product is wat we desired
reading the slides from the blackboard
i sorta feel our proj has gone off-key
heh.
well, dere's nothing much to be done
it's already 1130
and we still gotta report earlier to sch
i'm soo tired.
DUN CARE ALREADY.
darling, i enjoyed dinner with you today
we found another good spot for food =)
and you better stop eating so much!
otherwise you'll really become fat le
and den my father will love you.
hahas.
it's my mum's birthday tml
i dunno wad to buy
my sister treated her to SENSENS.
hahas.
cute sis la.
GONNA SLEEP LE.
otherwise darling will ignore me.
bleahs.
my shoulder is still aching
darling, MASSAGE!
HEHE.
i will help you too la kie.
MUACKS.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:26 pm
GOODNIGHT WORLD
not exactly goodnight.
cos i still got a damned report to finish!
I MISS MY SECONDARY SCH.
oh man, i miss secondary sch days..
anyways
is it not a must to send girls home after a date nowadays?
at least, if guys respect the girl, i tink they should.
well, if a guy does not send me home
i'll immediately dump him
BLAH.
i'm not demandin,
jus tink its basic courtesy.
oh, and abit random,
but i despise two-timers!
been in a similar situation once
and it certainly sucked when the truth was made known
felt like a fool
FUCK THE TWO TIMERS.
(darling, dun you dare. i'll punch the nuts out of you!)
i've been stuck at my report since dunno when
PROCRASTINATION IS THE TEETH OF TIME
oh man,
i tink i'm a victim.
i'm not liking any of this.
and the weather's getting hotter.
i tink i'm losing alot of weight.
darling,
hurry bathe!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:00 am
17/5/08
well, xu jing didn't smile... 
which called for the second shot. but not as clear though =(
they teach us how to lock the toilet door =) 
supposed to be clean but it STANK. BOOH.
deco. cool eh. weren't supposed to take pics though. 
sugar, oh honey honey, you are my candy boy.
THE CHEESECAKE CAFE!!`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:19 pm
BACK FROM THE CAKE EATING SESSION
as well as the
MANGO AND DURIAN ICE EATING SESSION
hahas.
well, i met darring after the cheese cake discussion
headed to dhoby for mango and durian ice
added a plate of 5 gue ties
lalalas.
not bad la
but quite normal
anyway, i tink i still prefer eating the durian fruit
hahas
and i also prefer mango ice alone
more taste.
came home
showed darring the video on cow slaughter
i really wonder y they must let the animal suffer
can't they just kill it?
y let it suffer after slitting their throats?
i dunno if it changed darring's opinions on beef
but it certainly did make me feel dat eating beef is a sin
( well i noe other animals die horribly too but i cant bear to watch anymore )
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fjSlOOYIkCE
watch this and you'll noe y.
darring just went home.
kinda tired today
i'm not sure y
cos i certainly did not use much energy
oh ya, the cheesecake still tastes nice
just dat their service attitude abit disappointing though
hmmm. took pictures for the proj =)
waits....
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:05 pm
i'm going out to meet the peeps for cheese cake
wahas.
its not enjoyment but commitment
to our work alrights.
BLAHS.
i'm bored cos darling is not accompanying me.
BYE!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 2:38 pm
16/5/08
its the last day of the week .
AGAIN.
knowledge gained from this education centre so far
.............
i dunno la.
i'm wondering bout my extra module
its tough
wat if i fail halfway?
i'd have wasted precious money =(
i'm struggling with CEM
help please?
today i had subway for lunch again
like so healthy right
but it was because
well....
i dunno y.
i saw TRACY and RANDY
the other day
and i saw RANDY again the next day
well, i wasn't sure
but TRACY said so
sorry!
didn't mean to not say hi..
i'm feeling more and more tired as the weeks pass by
physically i mean
its either my work or sleep
and more often den not
i always choose sleep
BECAUSE
i'm becoming more and more like a panda
well, i didn't notice until darring told me i had eye bags -.-
darring's cousin is getting married on WED
and he's PONNING sch
so irresponsible
HUMPH
but anyway,
wad is the right age to get married?
or rather, when is the right time?
25 is considered old and way too long for me
i wanna get married at 23
i dun wan to get married at 28
den wanna romantic 2 yrs
a baby at 30??
OH MY GOD!
i aim to have a child by 25
reason number 1 : i dun wan to allow outsiders to tell me my grandchild is cute when i bring my child out.
reason number 2 : i tink fertility is inversely proportionate to age
(which is proven true)
reason number 3 : i heard dat getting pregnant can increase bustline . tsk .
enough to make me really commited to my aim
will a marriage without GRAND WEDDING DINNERS be looked down on?
does wedding dinners give newly weds a sense of satisfactory?
hmmmm.
i wonder..
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:09 pm
15/5/08
sorry for the lack of posts darring
but i tink you also no time to read lar hor?
cos you always wake so early to accompany me to sch
den all the way till 10 plus den reach home.
DARRING tired mar?
sorry if i did anything wrong today kies?
i didn't mean to make you upset or irritated or anything de.
so you dun be angry kie?
I LOVE YOU DARRING. =)
anyways, lessons are getting more and more demandin
and dere's so much much much more to learn
though learnt in JC
but as i was playin a fool dere,
i dunno if it really was beneficial
i dun tink so cos i wasn't really paying any attention in the first place
i tot coming to the poly would not be as competitive
but looks like i'm wrong
plus the lecturers..
some are okie
but some
i tink we can totally forget bout learning more from dem
learn by ourselves ba
STUDY HARD MAN 1B21!
okies.
affairs of the heart cannot be explained.
hahas.
i dunno
but dere are living examples
like the idiot hu still loves me even though i have pimples
even though i treat him so badly
he still tries his best to make me happy
sometimes when we quarrel
and i wanna let go
i would tell myself not to
because i dun tink i'll be able to find someone hu is willing to pamper me so much
at the expense of his sleep, his time and even his pride
so i wanna hold on
i wanna wait till you graduate
till you finish serving ur NS
let's build a home tgt shall we?
even though we may not be wealthy
we may not lead luxurious lives but
as long as we're happy and are able to provide for ourselves as well as the family
i will be contented enough
because money is really not everything
'when the last fish has been caught,
the last tree has been cut down
the last river has been polluted
only then will you realise
that money cannot be eaten'
i read dis when we went to the zoo many years back
but it has been stuck in my mind ever since
yes i noe
i spend 50 bucks on a tshirt
but i make sure dat it is worth it
i dun mind ppl saying dat i onli got 3 sets of clothes =)
as long as i am comfortable with myself
and of cos my darring dun tink dat its diu lian
den i tink dat's all i need
not saying dat other ppl's opinion does not matter at all
but in terms of stuff like dis
which money can buy
i dun tink i'll be dat affected =)
when faced with difficult decisions to make,
would one actually follow the heart or the mind?
decisions should be made correctly
otherwise we would onli be able to live with regrets.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:24 pm
12/5/08
HELLOS.
i basically did nothing productive today.
while darling is busy studying....
YEAH STUDYING!
i can't believe it
wahas and i'm not
i'm sitting here rotting away.
anyways, realised most of my classmates dun tink we have got to apologise
hahas
well, i dunno
but come to tink of it
do we have to?
we weren't the ones hu started it
and a sentence from their class rep made me pissed
'which lecturer likes u'
ha. wat right have you got to make a statement liddat?
anyway, i dun care la
i'll jus go along with the majority
we're a class alrights.
make decisions together
lalalas.
darling is still studying
and trying to peep at wad i'm typing
and he jus said
'onli got pimples la hor?'
kuku nathan! i'm going to pinch ur nipples off!
bleahs.
yet another day has gone
and i'm like wondering wat in the world are we living for?
just some random question
blah blah blah
darling is emo-ing at my piano
hahas
DARLING I LOVE YOU
you look cute when you are sleeping
other den dat,
not cute le
wahas.
dat's for saying i onli got pimples!
HUMPH!
okies
sleep early tonight
oh, and i dreamt dat i use my lap use until it mao yan
HAHAS.
sign of using it too much?
BLAHS.
GOODNIGHT.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:10 pm
11/5/08
i decided not to miss a day's post
thus
even though it wasn't an eventful day, i'm still typing away
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUM!
hope you like the cookie cake i got
though i noe it's too sweet but it's still the thought that counts ya?
hmmm
darling i miss you.
hahas
i noe abit absurd la
cos it was just ydae dat i saw you
but i miss your hug!
COME AND HUG ME TO SLEEP NOW.
yeah like real.
saving up for our house next time?
save really hard alright?
though our starting pay and stuff wouldn't be much
but i believe when dere's a will dere's a way
=)
anyway, i told mummy bout the joke you said one mornin
the one about the 'lu shi ren zou chu lai de'
and we were laughing
hahas
lalalas.
i love you darling
hope we'll go to KL
and hope you'll follow us dere
i really wan you to!
LOVEs.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:58 pm
10/5/08
BRAHS!
today was fun lar
i FINALLY saw the doc
and got 3 months supply of medicine
like WOW
okies
the bill was like $42.40.
ex for a polyclinic huh
but well, consultation fees for PRs are like $13.oo already
anyways, my family went to jb without me
=(
luckily darling was accompanying me
so we were rotting at home after the doc
den went to compass for lunch at YOSHI
but dat pig was not full
PIG.
hahas
reached home and did some hw
AMAZINGLY
hahas
while darling slept
hmmm. first time i not asleep but he was
BLAH. real pig for a day
BLEAHS.
on the way home from jb,
my mum called me
and asked bout the tuition grant
and i realised i missed the signing session
i dunno wad to do
i gotta find out soon otherwise my family will be in debt .
and i might be thrown out of sch
OH MY.
ass brains i've got
anyway darling,
i enjoyed time spent with you today =)
dere wasn't even ONE arguement.
how great an achievement is dat for us?
HAHAS. not even a small one leh!
proud of ourselves man.
thanks for lunch and the time spent on me.
I LOVE YOU DARLING.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:25 pm
9/5/08
today was kinda boring
BLAHS
i've never felt that kinda anger for like so long already
but some fucking never seen before monster like creature
came along today and allowed me to vent the frustrations which have been building up for like so long
poor you
pity you
you already look bad enough yet now you have more to add on to the million things long list of misery
AWWWWW.
FUCK YOU ANYWAY.
blah blah blah.
i went to accompany darl after sch.
see how nice
even though it was so boring dere
and the valets were jokes
the TAXI stand
they use to park customer's(restaurant) car
den told darling not to copy their carplate
wahas.
too late guys.
he already took note.
darling is left with a little less den half an hour
and he can go on home
so dat he can rest early and come return my favour tml morning
by accompanying me to the docs to cure my terrible 'mark lee's sister' face
oh my
i didn't tink medicines would work
but i guess i have to now
cos its starting to get worse now dat i've stopped the medication
BLAH
parents mayb going to jb
sad
i've got no money
i cant go shop
and ive got lots of homework
=(
i've to make do with the 3 tops which i have right now =p
just took some flu medicine
should be knocking off soon
GOODNIGHTS EVERYONE.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:20 pm
8/5/08
i decided against posting the draft i typed ydae
so meaningless
darling i love you! XOXO
anyway, getting kinda stressed up in class
like their doing tutorials which are so way in front
while i'm still slagging and slacking behind
WAKE UP MAN.
i jus hate doing work
somehow
after slacking so much in the jc
i no longer feel the importance of good grades
the importance of having to study
but looking at my class
makes me feel the stress
WHOA.
i seriously pei fu dem =)
i wish i had their spirit
but apparently
i dun
BLAH
it's the 8th of may
the day we've been anticipating
but
dere's no good news
i was in the toilet
when i heard my mum talking to someone
lifted up my spirits
but den i heard the bad news
my heart dropped.
when will our prayers be heard?
when can we stop worrying, stop thinking
and wondering if everything's gonna be alright?
will things be alright?
i sure hope it will
I LOVE MY FAMILY.
guanyinmama bless us please.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 7:02 pm
4/5/08
today's boring.
nothing much done
except mayb for one tutorial
which consists of like
onli 8 questions i tink
heh.
useless day
jus realised quite long never watch movie with darling
blah
i'm returning money to my kor kor le
just banked in 80 bucks today
still shorta 400 bucks
hopefully i'll get the job next weekend
den i'll be even closer to clearing my debt
=)
darling,
tml i wait for you after sch kies?
see, i'm so nice
dun you jus love me more?
LALALAS~
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 6:48 pm
3/5/08
okies.
today went for CYA interview by CAAS officers at the airport
darling didn't go to work to accompany me dere =)
THANKS DARLING.
i was scared la.
nervous.
i even forgot to bring my phone out
heh.
reached the place at bout 1230.
den realised i was at the wrong terminal.
hahas.
i was one of the last few la.
so int he end it was like one to one interview
two to a room though
coincidentally, my 'partner' was also FELICIA =)
the interview went quite smoothly
in fact, VERY SMOOTHLY
for i was told on the spot
YOU'RE IN!
i was just so happy la
i just kept on grinning like a retard.
the officer made me feel dat i really gotta do this seriously
and i'm determined =)
darling and i took 36
initially planned to go dhoby
saw suntec
and got down
tot of bringing darling to raffles to try out the donuts
but he insisted i cannot eat chocs
oh well
gave up on the idea
headed to dhoby
had subway again
almost went for the mango ice thingy
but i was too full =x
went home
den slacked
played badminton with mummy, xiao di, mei mei
and darling of course =)
went home
sang karaoke
hahas
dinner
more karaoke.
darling is nice today
he gave me more smiles =)
i'm grateful
and sorry too.
i tink i pms-ing soon.
BLAHS.
THANKS FOR THE DAY DARLING.
I LOVE YOU.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:33 pm
2/5/08
i still tink its not nice to create joy from other's misfourtune.
oh well
today's sch was boring
as in
very very boring
kinda tired of studying
dun have the energy to go on
like
i dunno how to say
i dun feel well today
i dun feel good
but luckily you're dere
i mean
here
you're always here for me
i feel fortunate
yes i do
i dun onli feel proud cos you accompany me to sch everyday
i tink without you
i'd feel so lost and helpless right now
you're the one
hu always makes me feel good bout myself
i love you.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 7:55 pm
1/5/08
GOOD MORNING.
it's labour day today.
i'm the onli one awake right now
cos my mum and sis watched dis korean movie till late
my bro
well, he always sleeps till the sun shines on his butt
didnt sleep well i guess
been thinking still
i really shouldn't have said all those things to you
i feel worse den a fucking fucker
i'm sorry
i tink i said dem in anger
on impulse
i didn't tink before speaking
i dun deserve you treating me so nicely
seeing you liddat
my whole heart crushed
throughout the whole dinner
i was afraid you would leave
you gave me smiles
you tried to
but i noe
dis time i've hurt you real badly
you can treat me like shit
i wun blame you
i didn't do my part v well either
in fact
i didn't do it well at all
i dunno wat the fuck i was thinking
hais.
you tell me to forget wad happened
but i can't
i'm trying to though
to treat you better
i'm really sorry darling.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:31 am
