30/6/08
today
lessons sorta officially start
and the class is not as enthu anymore
hahas.
its starting to be mundane
but the laughters still remain =)
i'm still playing the role of the director
and i feel like a lesbian
i dunno how to twist everything
still thinking of the plot
hahas.
anyways,
today i ended at 12
wanted to come home to do my report
but
the mood jus wasn't dere
and because of everything that's happening,
i feel kinda lost
and down
my mei mei and di di kinda cheer me up =)
and my mei is so cute la.
hahas.
darrling played a part too.
i sent my mei to sch for cca like for the first time
we walked to sch
and on the way she was crapping
CUTENESS
ohmygosh
and then when she ended
i was too engrossed in the chat we were having
my mum and i
till we talked bout mei mei
den i was like JEZEBEL!
SHIT! JEZEBEL!
so i rushed to the sch to pick her
saw her going into the office
headed towards the office
security guard stopped me
ask me change pass.
so gay
darrling went to change
den my phone rang
"jie jie,, where are you?"
man, so cute la.
hahas.
so i asked her to come out.
and darrling changed back the pass
like one min later
-.-
dinner at mac.
not full
so was hungry while watching tv
and darrling went to buy food =)
SWEETNESS.
hehe.
darrling i love you .
MUAHS.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:14 pm
29/6/08
okie.
its like so late already
but i'm still trying to work on my report.
BLAHHHHHH!
fucked up.
i tink i'm gonna sleep at 12.
regardless of whether i've completed it or not.
fuck.
anyways,
darrling had an unexpected msg today
and i'm the damn popular director can
i'm having fun
am i?
i wonder.
hahas.
anyway,
i miss my friends.
in primary school.
im secondary school.
i so miss those times.
when i didn't have to ba so responsible for my actions.
feel so .
not young but not old.
ppl expect you to noe wad you're doing at my age
but they do not really trust every decision you make
so its like
MU DA DA.
REDUNDANT.
old enough in terms of dis
but still young in terms of dat.
ARGH.
oh ya,
i had a horrible dream a few nights back.
i really dun wan anything like dat to happen
even in the dream,
it hurt so bad.
i cried like mad
if it really happens,
i'd really breakdown
and not have the strength to climb back up.
anyways,
i wasted like 5 mins here.
so its back to my reports.
FUCK YOU REPORT.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:23 pm
28/6/08
okie.
jus back fro my bath.
oh man, the water was so cold.
now i'm wide awake.
i tot there would be hot water
so i didn't bother to switch on the heater
i was so damn wrong
now i'm SNEEZING.
-.-
anyways,
went back to nchs today
not much fun dere la
perhaps cos we aren't students dere anymore
but i met up with my friends!
so exciting .
at least i got to catch up with dem. =)
tracy and randy's forever so sweet.
and yiqi's boy fetched her from compass!
SWEETNESS.
huiyi was late thou.
but oh well.
after yq left with her boy,
it was onli me and hui yi left.
went to buy bubble tea
den she suddenly miss my mei mei
so she came over
for AWHILE
walked her to bus stop
she realised she forgot her hp pouch
ONLI WHEN we REACH the stop -.-
walked back home,
mummy said it wasn't dere.
so we checked out for ourselves
and it REALLY WASN'T dere.
i called her phone and SOMEONE answered!
oh man, careless huiyi.
but lucky huiyi.
the person offered to wait at kovan
and so we trained down to kovan to retrieve her treasure
nice person!
if it were me i tink i wouldn't. =x
hahas.
came home,
attempted to do my report
FAILED as usual.
i dunno how to even start.
so i'm like FUCKED UP.
anyway,
i bet everyone wonders,
y ppl like to visit someone's blog and criticize the person
GET A LIFE!
if you dun like, den dun go la
simple logic
even DUMBSHITS would understand.
retribution will come alright
even if not to you,
it'll happen to your descendants.
or your next next generation!
so jus fuck off people!
dun disturb ppl and spoil ppl's mood la
FUCKIN ASSHOLES.
going out to eat now!
hahas.
LATER!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:57 pm
27/6/08
today's paper was like shit
and ppl think poly paper's are easy
BULL.
heh. i start at the question for like half hour
half hour later,
i was still around the same stuff
i could not get the answer
and xujing scared me
suddenly like got the answer
go bang the table -.-
i tot i was alone
when i couldn't get the answer even after teacher announced
TEN MINUTES LEFT ARH.
well,
i was wrong
everyone couldn't get it
or rather everyone says they cant get it
oh well,
i'll noe when the results come
sa yo na ra lee kwan yew award
FUCK.
it's so not gonna come to me.
nevermind.
going back to nc tml =)
like finally gonna meet my 3 yr old fren
and get to talk to her
HOPEFULLY
cos her prince going
later i ba zhu her den he lonely.
blahs.
jun kai said its some kinda food fair
to raise funds....
-----.-----
i've donated enough to nc i think
for the 4 yrs i've been dere.
we'll see how it goes tml =)
tshirt and shorts with slippers for me.
that's all.
oh, darrling's coming over tml
if i dun take too long with my frens
and i've got to rush my report!
due this wed =(
B"YE.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 8:59 pm
25/6/08
HAPPY 14TH MONTHS DARLING.
though we both had exams but still.
I LOVE YOU DARLING.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:32 pm
19/6/08
so bored.
gotta start studying.
and its like the end of the hols already
hahas.
i'm still not in the mood for studying la seriously.
ydae's studying session wasn't productive either.
awwww.
but i still enjoyed ydae darrling.
thou like not enough time but....
hahas.
lalalas.
trying to study today la.
hopefully.
blahs.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 3:20 pm
13/6/08
worked today.
so tired.
i still love my darling.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:47 pm
today was supposed to be a happy day.
but a call spoiled everything.
and den a msg.
i onli replied once.
and dere wasn't even a history behind us.
remember den?
when we were at the cathay?
you said i was over reacting when you told me she sms-ed you
wad bout you today?
the way you wan me to delete.
you deleted her number,
but still, you knew it was her.
wad did dat show?
you're making me think alot.
and the more i think,
the more terrible i feel.
i'm recalling practically everything
i finally could like get over everything
and try to start again
try to change
den i remember now
how i can never be good enough for you
i really enjoyed today.
before the episode started.
i wished everyday could be like dis.
but now i wish for everyday to be everything but like dis
for i am feeling so down
so horrible
i jus wanna sleep.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:25 am
11/6/08
BOO.
i'm gonna START studying tml
hopefully.
hais.
onli one week left!
like so fast la.
weekend full again
but onli earning 399
i counted already.
yeah, like counting the chicks b4 the eggs are hatched.
shopping wasn't exactly fruitful for me
but for darling it was!
hahas. yeahs.
darling, hope you really liked wad you got =)
but you really look funny in jeans dat aren't really spacious
cos your butt is too small!
hahas.
i dunno wad's the cause la.
but, mayb i jus kan bu guan
hahas.
let's meet tml alrights!
bleahs.
today went to my mum's best friend's home
hmmm
nothing much dere
wanted to do my report
but failed.
hahas.
I WILL STUDY TML!
darling, i miss you.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:47 pm
8/6/08
not working today
so i slept till round 1 plus
lucky me.
hahas.
worked ydae
the ppl are so nice
i got a chair to sit
and i made new friends hahas.
heard some life stories
so sad la.
well,
how many of us actually get to enjoy life anyway?
live happily?
OH MAN
BULLSHIT.
we study, we learn, we work, we die.
blahs.
i wonder y some ppl do nothing and get money
some ppl slog like shit
to earn dat measly amount
dere's dis tattoo shop dere
and the youngsters hu visits dat shop tink dey're so 'sat'
crap.
stupid retarded around 15 yr old girl
tattoo-ed dis big fan on her back
OH PLEASE
it's fucking ugly.
and you tink you're cool.
you're jus plain retarded
not considering dat the flesh you destroyed was borne to you by ur parents.
anyways, working tml again.
den tues going jb!
yay! hahas.
darling, jus with draw some cash
and deposit more when you get ur pay
=)
SHOPPING.
oh ya, i wanted to save money.
i still wan to save money.
i will save money.
ten yrs later.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 5:14 pm
7/6/08
worked today.
so tired right now.
working tml.
though its a slack job but its still tiring okie!
i'm getting used to the stares already.
hahas.
STARE AWAY!
goodnight.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:35 am
4/6/08
okie
i jus realised dat the hunderedth post was so
''mood - downing ''
heh.
so after 3 days of not meeting,
i guess your attitude is still the same
and ur as temperamental
and ur face
you still gimme dat ''you idiot'' face
but nevermind
we'll see how it goes.
out at 5 plus
went to bugis
where we ate crepe
den pasta
and bought chewy junior home
they're in the fridge now cos my mum is too full to try them
awww.
spent quite a load of darl's money
SORRY
i still dunno wat to wear for the wedding dinner la
HAIYA
SO FRUSTRATING
tried on a few tops
liked one from dorothy perkins
but darl say too exposing
heh.
darl tried this black shirt at topman
not bad.
but it's like 73 bucks
quite reasonable
but outta budget
tues goin JB
darl, we go dere shop kie!
nights all.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:15 pm
3/6/08
TO YOU.
somehow,
i feel so much better ydae and today
not having to entertain you
and satisfy you
and make sure dat you're happy.
i feel so much more relaxed
and like loosened up
whenever i'm with you,
i feel like my every actions has got to satisfy you
and they must not be one dat will make you upset
to many, they might feel dat you're the one pampering me and stuff
but do they really noe wad i'm feeling inside?
i feel so tied up
so restricted
so uneasy at times
i dunno wad to do
and you always demand more
and more and more
i give you an inch
and you expect a feet
how do you expect me to put up with dis?
hais.
i dunno wad to do la.
jus gimme a break.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:16 am
