31/8/08
i saw the bluetooth icon at the bottom right hand corner of my screen
and i decided to send some pictures over .
hahas.
its really some alright.
here:
this was taken on the night of my birthday =)
hubbs eating my tangy spag. it tasted like penang laksa sauce. too horrible. so he sacrificed. awwww.
well....
hubbs busy eating. so i decided to kill time. BLAH
see? told you he busy eating...`feLicia took an umbrella @ 5:55 pm
HEY!
I GOT MY ZEN MOZAIC ALREADY!
but sadly its not in pink
because 8gb no pink currently!!
but still i'm happy. hahas
thanks to hubbs
hu didn't even think twice bout parting with his 200 and 28bucks
THANK YOU HUBBY!
I LOVE YOU =)
i visited jurong island ydae
and they gave us a 2gb toshiba thumb drive as a souveneir
how cool huh?
lalalas.
met jian hui, derek and sharon dere.
all chem engine ppl from tp =)
and i got a whole lot of brochures as well
hmmm.
their pay is not bad la
i mean,
i onli saw shell's
cos onli shell showed us wad we can expect as wages mar
but anyway,
jiu shi zhe yang le.
2 and a half yrs to graduation
as we go on
we remember
all the times we
had together.
den after the thing ended,
i headed to hubb's
to bathe
and we headed for comex
oh man
damn loads of ppl la.
so we faster buy
faster get out of cityhall before the comex ended
den we ate at ps
and headed home
THE END
i wanna thank hubby again =)
i just love you so.
lovetheywayyoujustmakesurei'msafeamongthesomanypeople
MUACKs.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 1:48 pm
27/8/08
darling, i love you!
MUACKs.
you la.
all your fault.
your presence.
warm hugs.
lovely kisses.
MAKE ME FAIL TO STUDY!
ohmygod.
i can't believe it
the whole day i didn't feel the stress'
but yet now
as i'm typing this
i feel the tension
and the butterflies popping out of their cocoon
in my STOMACH!
seriously
i tink tonight will be another day of burning the midnight oil for me
hopefully
i'll pass tml
hahas
TML!
we're going to comex
i'm gonna check out the mp3's
and the prices..
and.....
HUBBIE WILL BUY IT FOR ME!
HOR DARLING?
lalalalas.
i better go start on my studying
cos i bet i'll be wasting loads of time
reading potter (i'm at the last task, cedric's dead.)
and den laze around
bbbbbbbatheeeeeee
play around with the phone
DEN ONLY
get to studying.
heh.
dat's how i procrastinate
no wonder they say procrastination is the teeth of timeeeeee
and despite knowing this,
i'm still being a procrastinator
WAT THE HELL.
STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:24 pm
26/8/08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY FRIEND
YEO YIQI~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YIQI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
oh my,
we can officially go watch m18 together!
TRACY, too bad you still gotta wait!
hahas!
bleahs.
anyway,
i woke at 9 plus today
cos my bro was blasting music
and obviously,
it was too loud
and i couldn't continue sleeping -.-
claims he had a sore throat
but was singing along with oh so lovely jielun's songs
and,
the doc he went to refused to give him an mc
hahas!
seee how he geng and skip sch
but,
can dun give mc de leh
dat time i fake cough
she stilll give leh
guess my bro jus suay
hahas
nothing much today
continued my triwizard tournament
and i'm now lost in the yule ball~
lalala
dancing and swaying.
talking bout balls,
its rather sad
cos my sec sch's prom was cancelled
i tink it was because we petitioned to hold it in the hotel
rather than the pathetic sch hall
and we complained so much
they jus cancelled the whole thing altogether
sad.
and
now,
poly no prom de lor
jc de
rebecca did invite me la
but
mus make up
and buy dress
and make hair
and
i leave the sch already
go attend prom also like no yi si la
so i decided to give it a miss
guess there will not be any memories of prom night for me
i'm not sad okay!
jus find it weird and out
when ppl talk bout their prom.
i'm going to start studying for my thurs's exams soon
i wonder if i'll get distracted by yule ball
or the lappy
cos i totally got no moood to study
hahas.
stupid vista la
cant use its bluetooth
and i cant send pics .
blahs!
some other time.
i miss hubbs.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:18 pm
25/8/08
HAPPY 16TH MONTH DARRLING! =)
i love love love you .
BLEAHS.
anyway,
2508 - engineering maths paper
DOWN!
one more paper to go.
wahas.
actually, ever since bio paper ended,
it doesn't seem like exams anymore
i-fi won-fon der-fer why-fi why-fi why-fi
hahahahaha
something to test your brain
ANY TAKERS?
ANYGUESSES?
lalalas
today,
i found super cute video
that 46 million other viewers have already found long before me
but....
i wanted to share la
cos its really damn cute.
LOOK OKAY!!!!
funny right!!
CHAR-LIEEEEEEE
hahas
eh you dun scroll down without looking hor
you'll regret de
if you dun watch
cos seriously damn damn cute
hahas.
anyway,
ydae went to airport study with hubbs
and hubbs told me that his first time eating double cheese burger was when he was 17
he's now 19 btw
and i went
'' my first time eating double cheese burger is now can! ''
and den he feel so great dat dere was someone hu took a longer time than him to eat double cheese burger and he was laughing away la.
hahas.
oh
i zao bu du, wan bu du,
choose the day before ydae to start reading the goblet of fire all over again
and now
im at the start of the triwizard tournament.
bleahs
JK ROWLING super geng
get famous like dat
oh my god
imagine one day
FELICIA QUEK super geng
and get famous cos she invented someone
or something
and den she become a millionaire overnight
OH MY GOD!
*SMACK*
*YAWNS*
sorry i jus woke.
anyway,
my mama was reading newspaper
actually she still reading now
but ya,
an article on sex education or something
cos youngsters are having sex prematurely
bla
den she ask me
''so if dere's sex education, means ppl can have sex at young age la? ''
well, good question.
any idea ??
i'm off to watch some sadist videos that JINGWEI has introduced to me
goodnight for now.
HAPPY 16TH MONTH DARRLING! =)
i love love love you .
MUACKS .
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:43 pm
23/8/08
BOO!
hahas
i wanted to study today
but
yiqi called me last night
and she wanted my COMPANY TODAY!!
hahas
and so
i told myself i would study after that
oh btw,
she won tickets to wall-e!
hahas
since her baby couldn't make it,
i asked hubbs to spare me a few hours with my best fren =)
we were supposed to study lar.
THE MOVIE WAS GREAAAAAAT!
he's damn cute la that wall - e
E E E EE E E E E V AAAAAA
hahas.
and i tot it was kinda meaningful
like a lesson we should learn
or rather
prevention is better den cure
though it's jus a disney's movie
but i believe it sorts of like relates to all of us la
old or young black or white
so everyone should catch WALL - E!
=)))
oh ya,
so yiqi's legs hurt
and we proceeded to far east to get a pair of slippers
and i finally noe wad's gladiators
hahas
dun call me sua ku la
i jus didn't noe the name
-.-
and
dat was how we ended up walking and walking
until 7 plus
and when i went to meet my mum,
she left for home sweet home.
interesting day.
it jus seems so amazing
how one feels when they're in love
like how yiqi talks bout her baby
and it never fails to bring a smile to her face
awwwwww.
alrights.
GOODNIGHT.
hubbs wan me to go bathe
den now i end,
he say me abrupt -.-
NIGHTS!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:52 pm
21/8/08
damn the comp.
i cant send over the pictures!
but anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF
hahas
i'm officially 18 EIGHTEEN!
bleahs
javey and jingwei sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME
right before we went into the class=)
had exam from 6-8
so it sorta spoiled my mood
but
hubbs told me to wait for him
after my exams
at foodcourt2
i was wondering why..
a group of friends to celebrate for me?
NOPE.
birthday cake for me?
MAYBE.
well,
it wasn't something i expected.
he sat me down
at the darker area where there wasn't any light
(actually i requested cos i scared paiseh)
hahas. and den,
he served me my first course!
mushroon and potato SOUP!!
HOT HOT HOT de lor.
not dose leng diao kind okay.
and i was touched
because hubbs some more purposely wait until he coming out den heat up la
he say he scared cold
but he still use that kinda trap heat flask
i was practically smiling throughout!
nevermind
den came the SECOND COURSE
CARBONARA SPAGHETTI!
he cook de okay!
with chicken and bacon and mushroom chunks
oh man,
i smiled even more
i was grinning from ear to ear
i dun normally favour carbonara
cos it makes me feel like puking after too much
but hubb's was jus fine
I LOVED IT LA!
i ate EVERYTHING!
den.....
he told me not the last
still got...
den i went CAKE?
and he said 'eeyer. how you noe. not fun one'
but when he opened the box,
i realised that it was a cake ya
but wat's special is that
HE MADE IT!
he made an oreo cheesecake for MEEEEEEE!!
this time i was smiling even in my heart!
oh man
i'm so touched
i love my hubbs.
made my eighteenth birthday memorable.
and
not forgetting all the people hu wished my happy birthday.
not in order i think.
in order?
-kor kor(at 10pm)
-daddy(he got mummy to sms me)
-celin(beloved cousin)
-edwin
-HUBBS CALLED ME! AND SANG ME A BIRTHDAY SONG!
-kina CALLED! and said she wanted to meet me tml =)
-huiyi(hu smsed me a long long msg even thou she was dead beat and it cost her $1.20!)
-yiqi(i tink it was within an hour after she woke up! and this pretty girl actually was so thoughtful she got me a cake!! oh man, i've such great friends. touched by her too!)
-tracy(also in the morn, and she told me she going pe after that. hahas)
-rachel!(she still remembers =))
-rebecca(ask me to have happy exams . )
-michelle(HOD=))
-junkai (long secondary sch friend!)
-my mei mei sms me =) she also wosh me good luck for exams. cute lar she.
-rena CALLED me too! hehe. long time since we chatted. oh, and she'll always remember LG.
-wendy(she actually thought it was ydae! but at least she wished me=))
and not forgetting my beloved brother hu also shared and bought me the cake
and my beloved mummy who sang birthday song for me
and my sweet sister hu's always so cute
oh,
and because we didn't have birthday cakes for the mei mei and xiao di,
i decided we should celebrate tgt
and we cut the cake and blew out candles tgt
and sang
'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!'
wonderful 18 birthday
though non-grand
non-luxurious
non-party
but its full of love and warmth!
I LOVE MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY!
and
I LOVE EVERYONE WHO STILL THINK OF ME.
hahas.
goodnight everyone!
HUBBS THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN!
for giving me a memorable EIGHTEENTH birthday =)
I
L
O
V
E
Y
O
U
!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:53 pm
20/8/08
okays.
CEM is finally down =)
organic chem wasn't good.
i have a feeling my that my a has flown away
well, i touched cem this morn
onli dis morn
luckily mama and nu er were willing to come down earlier
hahas
and help me with my cem
otherwise
i'b have been doomed
at least now i have the chance to pass
but even so,
i'm quite disappointed with myself
I DIDN'T SPOT THE HOSPITAL RULE FOR A PARTICULAR QUESTION
damn it.
otherwise i might be able to jus confirm my pass
BUT nevertheless
THANKS MAMA AND NU ER
A.K.A
JAVEY and JINGWEI =)
gotta sleep early
and wake early to prepare for tml's exams.
oh yaaaaa
WARNING: LAUGHTER AHEAD!
other children can hor. onli china ppl cannot ah!
erm. cos ' screw you? '
starting from which toe, mister?
deprive ppl of fun la. idiots.
its THE FREE. please TREASURE THE USE.
i dunno since when.. thel sell animals with wine.
right from the living heart.
ULTIMATE!!!
MUST PLAN DE HOR!
fertile bunch of ppl. up till 70. not onli should teens have protected sex. kaka.
girls, can't stand your guy's horniness? they have JUST THE SOLUTION!
many things should be planned..
even this...
well......... wat kind specifically? we never noe.
another ULTIMATE.
hu on earth would suicide like that?
a dollar for a punch!
here, you'll get all the MEET products =)
since when our butts so small and no line?
erm, not be suffocated they mean. i guess..
hu wanna be in trouble? just call .
get hurt naturally .
sad china people. before life, after death, LABOURERS
that's all.
gonna sleep le.
=)
wonder how many ppl reads all .
hmmm......
goodnight folks.
oh ya, gonna be my birthday!
just 40 more mins
but somehow
like nothing special.
i can watch m18 le!
hubbs, i wan PRESENT.
other ppl can excuse
but sorry, so sad for you.
no present, i kill you!
hahas. bleahs.
just jokin.
at most ignore you a week onli.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:28 pm
18/8/08
nothing much about today.
i gotta go study
otherwise hubbs going to kill me le
he restrict me to 5 mins!
cos i always on the lappy
and throw all work aside.
okays.
something interesting
that i thought i should share.
young boy's reaction to blood.
hahas.
hilarious.
this is the full story. hahas. if you wanna laugh straight. jus forward it la. but i suggest you dun. its 5 mins worth it. jus bear with his cute face. hahas. HE'S DAMN CUTE LA.
laugh?
laugh?
funny right?
can destress okay!
bleahs.
GOOODNIGHTTTTTT.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:51 pm
17/8/08
ydae i learnt an important lesson
to do well,
we need sleep.
argh crap.
i still have not touched cem
die or die?
i tink i'll jus go for the exams and flunk the paper
any company?
oh man,
i'm such a bad influence.
JB was rush
i wanted to rush back to study
but well
things dun always go as planned
and
eerything jus went wrong
ydae sucked.
anyway,
attended super teens seminar
and kor signed me up for refreshment
heh
even though i argued that it would affect my sch
he insisted
well
i'll be missing a whole week of SCHOOL.
and
next sem's modules are alien to me.
how's that?
anyway,
i guess it'd be fun.
hahas.
i dunno.
i dunno how i'm to answer for the loss of attendance
bleahs.
leave it to later.
i'm broke now
completely
and i'm in debt
okay
not in debt
but possibly mayb
DEFINITELY MAYBE.
i'm bored.
GOODNIGHT.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:46 pm
15/8/08
i jus clicked on the PUBLISH POST
and my fren asked me to watch this video
its damn sad la.
damn xin suan.
wad a way to end the night.
all the trainings just gone down the drain
and
he might be permanently paralyzed in his right arm
and the FUCKING WEIGHT hit his back!
oh man.
it must be so FUCKING PAINFUL
just hope for the best for him.
goodnights.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:41 pm
i had last min work!
at compass point
LUCKY ME
hahas.
hubbs accompanied me
and so i tried to study bio
but i realise now
that it didn't work out.
busy tml again
going to jb
blahs
its sad
jus now i told myself i will study in the night
but i'm feeling so tired right now
HOW TO STUDY?
hmmm.
give up cem?
den i'll dash my dad's hopes
i'm CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE
its either more time for myself
or struggle
well,
i guess my dad wun really mind even if i drop
RIGHT?
aiya.
cant waste time on such thoughts
i ought to bathe and go to sleep
gotta wake early.
sometimes i really wonder
y there's a world of a difference between the many ppl living on this god damned earth
like
y cant everyone be rich?
hmmmm.
i wonder how i'd feel
if i wake tml
and realise i'm actually BILL GATE'S daughter
hahahahhahahhahaha
CANNOT BE
he's blonde
and well
got a rectangular face
SLAPS.
guess i'm drifting off to dreamland
i really gotta bathe
or i'll sleep a smelly pig
worse than a smelly pig.
SMELLY SMELLY PIG.
anybody got any idea whether FOREVER LOVE really exists?
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:16 pm
14/8/08
hellos.
studying at the airport
well,
it was kinda productive
but onli i was studying bio
and i onli managed to finally read thru all the topics
havent memorized
oh man.
nevermind
i CAN DE!
i'm FELICIA QUEK leh.
hahas.
studied with hubbs, von and yiqi =)
40% chatting 60% studying
at least studying dominate right
hahas
not bad la.
nothing much today
tml cant devote all time to study
but well
luckily hubbs will be here
at least i can study abit =)
thanks hubbs.
i noe i can count on you!
iloveyou.
okie.
now for something less stressing
and less sad
hahas
found it in another email.
bleahs.
goes to show that GIRLS or rather WOMEN are better than MEN. =)
WIFE VS. HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument andneither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, 'Relatives of yours?' 'Yep,' the wife replied, 'in-laws.'
W O R D S
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, 'The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men... The husband then turned to his wife and asked, 'What?'
CREATION
A man said to his wife one day, 'I don't know how youcan be so stupidandso beautiful all at the same time.' The wife responded, 'Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me;God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!'
THE SILENT TREATMENT
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, 'Please wake me at 5:00 AM.' He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, 'It is 5:00 AM. Wake up.' Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.
God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.
hubbs, I dominate =)
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:58 pm
13/8/08
jus got home not long
went to mac at 9
hahas.
the aircon was off
and it was too unbearable
so i decided to come home la.
gonna continue at home
bleahs.
going to the airport tml
no sch. YAY.
today's plant design sucked
hahas.
well,
jus hope i pass la
otherwise needa forward module
it'll be a waste of time and MONEY!
hmmm.
nothing interesting today leh.
oh. actually got.
read this email.
bout some CHINA FREAKS
eating feotus with herbs.
got some in the previous post
but well....
its kinda sad.
feotuses are sold
full grown ones are more ex
aborted ones are also sold
and they are mostly
or rather all female
because of the one child policy in china
its damn sad
and a bowl costs RMB3500
walao.
consumers heck anything else
so fuck.
oh,
it is believed to boost the sex life or something.
no, to enhance health and sexual stamina
WAT EXTENT FOR PLEASURE MAN.
if you're old
jus admit it and face it la
damn.
oh. stop scrolling down if you dun wanna see the pictures la.
scroll until here, should have seen part of it?
den jus CONTINUE lor.
nights people.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:17 pm
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:03 pm
12/8/08
http://yutakis.wordpress.com/2008/01/25/transformer/
okies.
jus found this link
find it so funny.
CLICK LA.
no horror
no thriller
nothing disgusting
no porno
aiya,
jus click kie.
HAHAs.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:49 pm
HEYS.
YA LA.
YOU LA!
LOOK BEHIND YOU?
WELL.
LOOKS LIKE YOU TURNED BACK AND SCROLLED DOWN.
anyways,
i went to sch in the morn
was late
as usual
SORRY JINGWEI
if you wanted to eat hotcakes
because i was late
we didn't get to eat hotcakes
so bought a burger
and had to pathetically eat on the way to t7
BLAHS.
after secret sessions
passed kor the discman
and headed to tiong
did my business
slept
and off to sch again
lunch-ed at fc4
headed to library ALONE
cos hubbs was rehearsing his roleplaying with his MARRIED FREN!
oh man,
i wanna get married too
when he came
hubbs asked something regarding him being late
and he went
ZHAO GU BAABY MARRRRRR!
walao. so nice.
and the wife is not studying anymore.
stay at home look after baby.
HOW OLD ARE THEY?
not sure too leh.
24 25?
hubbs noes.
spent bout 15 mins looking for kor kor la
den i finally found him
he bought e71!
damn cool la.
can surf net on 3.5g some more
my kor kor is rich.
hahas.
at least definitely much richer den me.
after kor left at bout 6,
i started studying chem
i tried doing papers first
but i was stuck at the very first question
so i decided to read up the notes.
TADAH!
i onli did 4 chapters.
sians.
plant design test tml
40%!
damnit.
i sure hope it would be easy la.
cos i gen ben dunno how answer questions regarding the simulation.
BLESS ME WITH LOADS OF GOOD LUCK PLEASE.
trained to woodlands when library closing
den took 161 back with hubbs.
stupid CHINA COUPLE in front of us.
guy keep touching her boobs accidentally on purpose.
OH
den there was dis INTERRACIAL couple in the queue too
hmmm many interracials couple nowadays
but that wasn't the main point
main point is HE HAS BO
heh.
and i wonder how SHE stands it
they were behaving SOOOOOO intimately on the bus
definitely unaware of the many ppl around them
FRENCH KISSING for so loooooong
so many ppl staring
okie.
i noe it might be no big deal
oh wells.
and den the guy like hug the girl so tight
whent he girl head at his ARMPITS.
oh man,
i seriously can't imagine the SMEEELLLLLL!!
the girl didn't faint thou.
BLEAHS.
nothing interesting today.
oh,
JINGWEI mentioned at 957and38secs this morn
that SHE MISSES XUJING!
AWWWWWWW.
jingwei, notice its in purple? BLEAHS.
NIGHTS.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:30 pm
11/8/08
sch today.
jus one tutorial in the morn
onli 2 ppl attended lecture
and NO
i am NOT one fo the 2
hahas.
headed to tiong after printing my stuffs
lunch-ed and slept for bout an hour
and headed to airport
i feel so KUKU
cos i brought my extra phone
my earpiece
but not the connecter
DAMN
i had to survive studying without MUSIC
and kopitiam's NOISY NOISY,'
luckily no memorizing for me
jus some maths
i realised
i still have 3 sub UNTOUCHED .
TOTALLY LA.
i might jus drop cem.
but
it might keep me busy for the next 2 yrs
when hubbs goes into the army
MAYBE
i will be busy
even without CEM
MOTHERFUCKING CEM.
hubbs was studying with me today
and we saw weird ppl
he spotted dis couple
the GUY bought HIS OWN food
and went to sit down
the GIRL went ALONE and bought HER FOOD by HERSELF
while the GUY was already tempted to start savouring his dinner
so weird.
hubbs thought it was funny
because since 250407
hubbs has never failed to buy me my food whenever we meal tgt
HEHE. looking at the girl
i feel WAY MORE FORTUNATE =)
i managed to complete the 2 test papers =)
and ONE tutorial
and i'm starting revision for my organic chem
LIKE SO WOW
but FIRST CHAPTER ONLY LA
hahas.!
cos i decided i was tired
and we bus-ed home.
i saw a trainer training his husky downstairs!
SO COOL.
and after hubbs walked me up,
he go KPO
and so we found out the husky's 2yrs old
and owner's taken care of it since it was 4 mths!
WOWOWOWOW.
I WANT A PET DOG TOO!
hubbs, heard dat?
BLAHS.
i gotta go batheeeeeeeee
heater's been out for quite a whileeeeeeee
BYE.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:01 pm
10/8/08
hais
yet another day wasted.
i dunno when i'm gonna really start studying
i'm disappointed in myself
seriously
i'm not trying to influence
or trying to create an impression
trying to fake not studying
i really DID NOT
i jus wasted one day like dat
i NEVER touch my books today
nothing regarding sch today
damnit.
PISSED WITH MYSELF.
hubbs,
i dun wanna quarrel with you anymore
i jus didn't want you to leave so early
i even offered to cook maggie for you
thou i noe its unhealthy
i jus wanted to spend a lil more time with you
i missed you.
but,
you kicked a big fuss
and made it seem wrong
you did not noe my intentions
you did not understand.
i'm disappointed in wad you said
but i'm willing to accept ur apology
and trust that you'll not say it again
PLEASE don't again.
you've no idea how much ur words affects me
esp when i ponder over them before i go to sleep
sometimes it just hurts so deep
i wish i wouldn't wake
but somehow
almost everytime
i wake up
see ur msg
and i'm happy again
i dun remember anything from the night.
i tink dis time i've really fallen in.
and i dun wanna get out
i onli want
your loving hands to come and pick me up.
hubbs
i still love you.
but i'm so afraid
that one day
i'd be in intolerable pain
when that day comes,
i noe i'll return to the old me
soon enough
but
perhaps to others you might not be perceived dis way
but i believe that you're the onli one hu'd do so much for me
i dun tink i'd be able to find another you
you sacrifice your sleep
to accompany me to sch
even when your friends say that you're stupid
you dun care
well,
mayb you might say different things to them and to me
but i have the feeling that it is not the case
for i trust you
nobody feels secured in a relationship
boy or girl
you never noe wat might happen the next day.
i'm no exception.
but i'm willing to believe
that you'd hold on
no matter wat happens
you've proven yourself many times now
i dun wanna give you the chance to prove it again
i wan happy memories from now on
i'll give in more to you.
i should at least deserve a b now
for trying
jus forgive me on days before the disturbing aunt disturbs me
sorry
but i guess i
m extrememly grumpy on those days
jus bear with me alright?
i love you hubbs.
tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:44 pm
9/8/08
another day gone.
supposed to study.
but as usual
FAILED.
eh hello!
WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA LA
the exams are like next next week
and i'm still so damn unprepared.
HOW TO GET PASS HER LIDDAT?
and i'm so dead for CEM
i really feel like dropping la.
damnit
y can't they like
PUT CEM AS LAST PAPER
FUCK.
and i dunno wad's wrong with myself
i ALWAYS feel tired leh
will drinking more coffee help?
i've got BIO which i noe nuts of
CHEM which i need more more more time to study and get good grades
EMI which i've yet to conquer the topics not under differentiation
AND AND AND AND AND
CEPB which lectures were used for gossips and macdonald's breakfast.
MAN
next sem i better drop all this fucking attitude
parents are struggling to pay the FUCKING EX fees
and i'm playing a fool in sch
DAMNIT
where's my damned conscience
but i DO feel guilty.
jus dat
i haven been doing much bout it
and my TOO-GOOD-TO-BE-TRUE digestive system
always making me feel like toilet-ing
when i still have 5 hrs of lessons ahead
and i'll always be tempted to go home.
if i live in clementi
i would consider going back to sch la
but the trip home and to sch would add up to 2 damn hours la.
anyway,
sch sem is over
one week to exams
3 weeks to hols.
i better get down to serious work
dun wanna regret after the exams man.
HUBBS!
MOTIVATE ME!
AND I WILL FORCE YOU TO STUDY AS WELL.
STUDY PEOPLE!!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:24 pm
7/8/08
blahs.
darrling jus gave me a massage
hahas
OH
i'm damn pissed with myself la!
i finally did my references and completed my report
and instead of onli sending in certain sections for checking
i sent the whole fucking report.
dammit.
FUCK.
but
wad's done is done
tml den kan zhe ban ba
WELLLLLL
i guess someone would be secretly happy
hate ppl hu sounds so sarcastic
types sarcastic stuff
and and and
treats ppl's downfall like their windfall
aiya i dunno how to put it
that chinese phrase
DAMNIT
i'm so glad
i'm still gonna work on my ONLY HOPE
and WIN YOU!
I'M DETERMINED.
darrling,
let's work for our exams.
OKIE?
and den enjoy the 6 weeks of hols.
I WANNA GO TO THE SENGKANG POOL!
bleahs.
(hubbs is telling me we wont get paid -.-)
hahas.
LOVE YOU.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 9:38 pm
5/8/08
HAPPY WEDDING TO US HUBBIE! =)
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 5:07 pm
i'm so bored
and so tired
though i just woke not long la
i skipped cem today
skipped cepb
and skipped emi
i'm going to finish my report
and start studying for exams!
man.
i'm so dead for bio
trip to jb was relatively smooth
i gotta watch THE DARK KNIGHT!
eh damn nice la
it's the onli movie where i prefer the bad guy
hahas
such a pity he's gone
could it be because he acted in this movie that he's gone?
hahas
like superstition
anyway
i bought my bag le!
and I LOVE IT .
because it really makes the weight so much more bearable
hahas
even when carrying a laptop
i dun feel so pekchek
i also dun find it dat heavy
hmmm..
i gotta get back to my report la.
wonder how i'll score for my plag.
heh.
studying at airport tml
because REBECCA misses me.
hahas.
and she made me taller.
you kuku girl
CONCENTRATE ON YOUR A'S FIRST LA.
hahas.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 3:36 pm
1/8/08
okie.
i dunno y dere's a lack of updates but...
i'm going to JB tml!
dis time,
we're gonna first buy tickets to the movie
because everytime we get back to cs with the intention of catching a movie,
THE QUEUES ARE SO FUCKING LONG
heh.
and we're going in earlier
so that we do NOT get stuck in the queue for more then an HOUR!
anyways,
no idea y the word INFERIOR was invented
and even if so,
WHICH FUCKER use it on humans?
to compare humans?
like,
i feel inferior.
she feels inferior.
he feels inferior.
fuck.
nobody shoulf feel inferior!
mayb you could say
the quality of this furniture is inferior compared to that of another
but never he is inferior or she is inferior or i am inferior
BECAUSE the only way that this can happen is when someone is better in every way,
or mayb majority
and their qualites are better den you
BUT HELLLLLOOO?
wake up the bloody idea.
HU IN THE WORLD IS PERFECT?
even someone hu wastes their fucking money on cosmetic surgery, piercings, tattoos or even LIPOSUCTION
THEY ARE NOT FUCKING PERFECT MAN
(mayb jessica alba is an exception, she's my IDOL!)
okay, but mayb she has bad habits
mayb she's grows a moustache actually.
hu noes?
someone hu may seem better than another in some ways
may actually be a million times lousier in others
so y bother comparing?
some ppl seem lucky
and happy and contented
but are they actually?
or are they jus putting up an act
to put others down.
to make others feel that they are not as good
they cant be compared?
well,
i think that as long as you have confidence in yourself,
nothing else matters
no matter wad others say
dun let their words put you down
jus continue haveing confidence
you will see that the ppl hu pours cold water on you all the time,
unwilling to accept you for you,
unwilling to look at the better side of you,
are actually the people hu are jealous!
and,
they gain joy when you get upset because of their crude remarks
when you actually BELIEVE THEY'RE FUCKING CRAP.
so why bother?
just like that radio ad
only listen to the good stuff =)
would you rather a person hu's handsome but lacking self confidence
always rejecting you and saying that they cant do it
always being the wet blanket
or would you rather someone hu isn't as handsome
but full of confidence in whatever he does
encouraging you whenever you're down
making you feel confident as well?
but all in all
NOBODY should feel inferior
when you have confidence,
you'll see your circle of friends change
you'll be more optimistic
your true friends will tell you, advise you
encourage you
and
you'll become a much more happier person like SERIOUSLY!
so,
i shall stop complaining bout my small boobs
(except mayb to my darling so that he'll assure me heehee.)
or complain bout my pimple face
rather than feeling inferior,
i shall spend time thinking and taking more care
in order to achieve even MORE confidence
so,
even if your confidence level is low
jus believe in yourself
and add on confidence along the way
add confidence even by just praising yourself over something small that you might have achieved
think.
i have ppl hu care and love me.
have positive thoughts
DAMN THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS
CONFIDENCE PEOPLE.
ONE OF THE KEYS TO HAPPINESS.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 10:26 pm
