31/3/09
BACK!
reached this morning.
KL wasn't as boring as i expected luh
apparently,
many old uncles and aunties mistook me for my aunt.
JOKE.
FINALLY,
got to meet my long lost cousin
hmmm, not exactly lost,
just i dunno how to explain.
life there is like,
more relaxed.
although it was boring luh.
went sao mu
at some ''fu gui shan zhong''
gong gong situated there.
wl,
wake at 6 can.........
luckily this yr nv jam,
last yr jam for like 2hrs plus luh!
then went to the other one,
i dunno the name.
went sungei wang
like finally.
some mixture of sim lim and far east.
and times square is so not class now.
it used to be like malaysia's paragon
erm
5 yrs ago?
now its like so chut chut.
cmi.
whatever.
somehow,
i feel happier there lehhhhhhhhh
mayb cos there nothing to do
hahas.
dun think so much there.
why ah?
ohhhhhh,
gonna save money to go genting!
i WANNA GO GENTING!
I WANNA GO GENTING!
I WANNA GO GENTING!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 6:38 pm
27/3/09
heading off to KL in a few hours.
last min decision
bu fang xin my ah ma take train alone
so i decided to say yes when she ask me accompany.
ima good girl see..
jus finished baking cookies, washing up
bla bla bla.
and i'm feeling fed up right now.
its 3 am in the morning.
significant?
FUCK.
it's not worth it.
it isn't how i wanted it to be.
isn't wat i expected,
but then again,
wat goes along with ur expectations?
forget it.
forget it.
forget it.
forget it.
think i'm going bonkers.
3.04am
hais.
i'll be gone for i dunno how many days luh.
miss me when i'm gone.
whoa oh oh oh.
whatever.
self entertain.
FUCKYOU LA.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 3:01 am
24/3/09
gloominess aside,
i tink the outing with rachel and huiyi was fun
OMG.
although it wasn't for very long,
but the recollections
WHOA!
secondary school
hahas.
i tink rachel hitting soneone with the badminton racket was the jokiest.
to think rachel looks so gentle .
lols.
ehh
go back nc eat wanton mee !
when when?
always fail de lor.
and meetup with tracy and yiqi was fun too.
laugh like nobody''s business
suddenly we were talking about the sec3 camp and everything
and they said i didn't bathe -.-
while planning the next outing,
tracy's like so evil luh.
''CHU BING'' omg.
evil tracy.
ehh tracy, when you get ur license,
drive us to the damsy hill or whatever okay!!
oh, huiyi,
if you're reading this,
next outing will be on the 7th april alright?
dinner then.
and then the next next one would be the 19th,
go settlers and den ben and jerry's!!
i wanna watch mall cop!!
watching it tml/
wheeeeeee~~
oh past few days worked at airport with xj.
lols.
i made many new friends luh!!
i can even memorize their carplate.
hahas.
lame.
next yr this time,
someone stayong near juring island,
rent me ur room for 6 weeks!
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 2:30 pm
20/3/09
suddenly all the thoughts came back.
good ones.
bad ones.
past and present
i've a feeling i got it all wrong
can you please lead me back?
i dun understand.
it's like i'm kinda lost in this merry go round.
and you're like the machine operator.
making the carousel go faster and faster.
i can't think straight.
i can't make out what's really happening.
i don't really know what's going on.
as the days go by,
i realise that i might have headed the wrong way
i dun wanna feel hurt yet again.
sounds so childish .
but it's exactly how i'm feeling.
i tot bout everything that has happened.
perhaps , just perhaps.
words are meant to be spoken,
they're meant to be heard as well
but they don't really mean anything
if they don't come from the bottom of your heart.
some words dun have to be said out loud.
but sometimes,
saying them will allow people to understand better.
maybe that's just wat i need.
WAKE UP YOU FARKING IDIOT.
i need someone to scream that into my face.
slap me or whatsoever.
i'm just unhappy right now la.
i dunno wat the hell's got into me.
cheer me up someone.
but,
i guess that someone's gotta be me.
nobody really cares,
except yourself.
onli you can save yourself i guess.
with some external help.
is that it?
prove me wrong, please.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:54 am
18/3/09
results today.
damn mood dampening.
gpa drop.
hais.
i see my ntu flying away.
suddenly i realise that without a degree it seriously would be difficult
hais.
damn this sem.
buck up alright!
nest sem!
my onli a,
thanks kian how.
i got an a for CEPA.
the onli pathetic one.
hais.
supposedly happy.
cos i've got 2 days of freedom.
but,
i dun even feel like clubbing anymore.
not right now.
i jus dun have the mood.
maybe some alone time would be good.
since i've already informed i'd be out for the night.
the beach?
scary.
the staircase?
out of your mind.
loiter around!
hais.
whatever.
damn the results.
all your own fault luh.
you stupid pig.
study luh.
play play play.
hais.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 12:56 am
11/3/09
yeahs .
everything's my fault.
everything also me.
yupps.
i don't freak care alright.
the more you wanna push all the blame to me
the more i wanna go against you.
haven't you seen enough to noe me well?
damn.
you think you noe wat i've been thru
but seriously
you don't
you guys don't
you're afraid of things that i've already been thru
and you think i dunno how that feels.
but i so feel like telling you that i do fucking noe okay.
i dun think there's anything worse that could happen seriously
mayb if i could tell you the truth,
it'd be so much easier.
but no,
it's mentally torturing.
for me, it already is,
i tink it'll be for you too.
you think that yeahs
''you're so naive and gullible''
ha ha.
wat a joke.
i was.
sadly,
the memories are back.
thanks.
you are welcome to think of me in anyway that you like.
i assume,
that you think i'm rotten.
hahas.
whatever.
think all you wan
2 more years and i'm outta here.
sleep on the streets or whatever.
2 more years.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 4:38 pm
10/3/09
damn. hais.
y always like this?
damn.
and you complain when i'm not home.
but when i'm home,
this kinda things happen.
how'd you expect me to wanna come home?
you claim it doesn' feel like a home
obviously it doesn't
i'd rather rot at paragon.
hais.
i needa breather.
i wanna get out.
i dun like hearing this kinda stuff.
i dun like being here.
not for now anyway.
hais.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 1:59 pm
i'm bored.
that's about all.
nothing interesting happened luh seriously.
so i guess..
lovelies.
we were bored ya? ran out of ideas. hahas.
random. i dunno wad we were doing. 
i like this. yiqi damn cute luh. some kinda failed batman pose.
cat woman. sweet girl. acting cool =.=
i think this was the 2 babes idea...
bite tracy!
au natural.
lovelies.
tracy TOE!
HUIYI!
huiyi and YIQI!oh yeahs.
grats to you guys!
not bad a level results huh
especially tracy!
hahas.
okay.
i'm proud to have you guys as my friends
including you luh HUIYI.
hahas.
blogger took amazingly fast speed to upload the photos.
not bad huh.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:56 am
1/3/09
friday night was fun =)
dinner with my lovely girls.
lalalas.
though huiyi onli came for dinner.
stupid you.
CLUBS RUIN GATHERINGS ALRIGHT.
next time,
i wan gatherings without clubs involved!
talk talk talk with tracy and yiqi
i like =)
silly tracy was so happy cos it was the first time she went home so late
hahas.
next outing somewhere nearer
compass starbucks also can okay!
den we can talk longer =))))))
fun night it was,
but i learnt an impt lesson as well
don't make empty promises
cos when you dun fulfill them,
you're shit.
don't lie
cos when the someone you lied to finds out,
you're gone.
don't try covering up for yourself
cos it never works,
just makes you feel terrible
admit your mistakes,
and not make the same one again.
i guess as time passes,
people will appreciate you more.
gotta go sleep already.
it's gonna be 2am!
goodnight.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 1:44 am
