10/8/08
hais
yet another day wasted.
i dunno when i'm gonna really start studying
i'm disappointed in myself
seriously
i'm not trying to influence
or trying to create an impression
trying to fake not studying
i really DID NOT
i jus wasted one day like dat
i NEVER touch my books today
nothing regarding sch today
damnit.
PISSED WITH MYSELF.
hubbs,
i dun wanna quarrel with you anymore
i jus didn't want you to leave so early
i even offered to cook maggie for you
thou i noe its unhealthy
i jus wanted to spend a lil more time with you
i missed you.
but,
you kicked a big fuss
and made it seem wrong
you did not noe my intentions
you did not understand.
i'm disappointed in wad you said
but i'm willing to accept ur apology
and trust that you'll not say it again
PLEASE don't again.
you've no idea how much ur words affects me
esp when i ponder over them before i go to sleep
sometimes it just hurts so deep
i wish i wouldn't wake
but somehow
almost everytime
i wake up
see ur msg
and i'm happy again
i dun remember anything from the night.
i tink dis time i've really fallen in.
and i dun wanna get out
i onli want
your loving hands to come and pick me up.
hubbs
i still love you.
but i'm so afraid
that one day
i'd be in intolerable pain
when that day comes,
i noe i'll return to the old me
soon enough
but
perhaps to others you might not be perceived dis way
but i believe that you're the onli one hu'd do so much for me
i dun tink i'd be able to find another you
you sacrifice your sleep
to accompany me to sch
even when your friends say that you're stupid
you dun care
well,
mayb you might say different things to them and to me
but i have the feeling that it is not the case
for i trust you
nobody feels secured in a relationship
boy or girl
you never noe wat might happen the next day.
i'm no exception.
but i'm willing to believe
that you'd hold on
no matter wat happens
you've proven yourself many times now
i dun wanna give you the chance to prove it again
i wan happy memories from now on
i'll give in more to you.
i should at least deserve a b now
for trying
jus forgive me on days before the disturbing aunt disturbs me
sorry
but i guess i
m extrememly grumpy on those days
jus bear with me alright?
i love you hubbs.
tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up.
`feLicia took an umbrella @ 11:44 pm
